It was just me
And I was happy
Then you came
And it was me and you
So I was happier
Then you left
And it was just me again
Only now I’m sad.

I polish the shoes
Of the man who damned my family
I bow
To the one who married my betroth
I share the bed
Of the woman who saw fit my sister eat with the dogs
And my brother with the pigs.
My King is a beast,
My Queen is a vampire,
And I am wretch in a wretched world.

And here I thought I finally had it
That maybe for once fate was on my side
That maybe the heavens had shone its light upon thee
That maybe I had somehow altered the course of destiny
But I guess it wasn’t meant to be,was it?
And once more I fall short
Tumbling down head first
Into the muddy, shadowy reeded rivers of my past
Broken and all alone.

Again.

She came to a cross road,
And pondered a while.
She could go forward or go left or right
Or even go back.
He heart ached and begged her to go back
Her head insisted she goes on forward
Her body fought to go right
And her spirit wanted to go left
Her whole life was the crossroad.

You’re dead inside
I looked and all I saw
Was abandonment and desolation.

Of course you’d know!
You daggered my heart
Officiated the funeral
And left the grave unmarked.
And so yeah,
I’m dead inside!

It was a Wednesday.
A damned cold Wednesday.
I couldn’t have been eighteen,
Hell, I don’t think I was even sixteen yet
But when you said it,
I felt I finally found it,
The one thing I didn’t know I was looking for
And you baptized me with fire
Then dressed me in thorns!
Said it was a perfect ending for a perfect story.
The sad part was,
You somehow made my little heart believe it

It’s dimming,
Like the morning star
Sweet but weak
Beautiful but fading

It was strong and deep
It was heavy and fast,
Real and honest
True love.

Time happened
Strong and deep,
Became weak and shallow
Light and slow
Fake and false
A lie.

And now this is what is left
Of the once great love,
A carcass of falsehood
An abyss of nothingness.

T. Titoh

It wasn’t because I didn’t love
Rather it was because I loved that I left
For in my absence u would miss me
And then somehow,I’d mean something to u

Love, Titoh

If I had just one wish I would wish to have it both ways in everything. You know, eat junk food and remain healthy, not work out and still have a pretty good body,not work and get a pay cheque at the end of the month,be late and not get in trouble,just sit there,smile sheepishly and still land a 9,crash and not die. And you thought you’d seen the laziest man alive. Anyway I am not really lazy,I just have lazy thoughts. Can’t get them outta my mind.
I also hate people. I pretend to like them because that’s easier. If it were up to me I’d be on my own island. So far away from the rest of the humanity I can’t remember what a society is. Where I could just piss off the edge of a cliff without a care. Grow my hair and beard so long that I can’t see my chest and walk around naked once in awhile, or all the time,who cares? Wait,no one. Wild and free. Howl in the middle of the night at the top of the mountain,sleep on the beach,waves crushing against my bare back… What a life.

Deep is the fear
Of a broken heart,
So deep that to it
Love is a synonym for horror
And trust, a scary tale.